Further dream therapy
The worst thing about being ill is when you don't know that you are infact ill. The signs were all there and I was listening to friends who were suffering similarly, about their obsessive behaviours over objects, routines and people.
It is only looking back I realise that really, I was quite ill. And hello to my mum, if you're reading this. Its nothing to worry about now, its all under control!
And so, whilst being 'fine' now, I still get the dreams reminding myself of what I wanted at the time, what I obsessed over. And when I wake up I can't 'tell what has and hasn't happened. Some of you may remember the headshot piece I did a while back, that was dream therapy too. And unbelievably, I haven't dreamt about being shot in the head since. Crazy.
Please, leave my dreams, as I know I never meant anything to you and you no longer occupy my conscious mind.
They say unrequited feelings hurt the most, but if they aren't real why do they hurt so much?